If you haven’t been following my ramblings about my craziness and this book, you can catch up by reading this.
So I finished the book Sunday and though I really wanted to write more about it, little Pitter Patter has an ear infection and would rather have me hold him and play Jenga than let me sit at the computer and write. He is two after all and it’s beginning to show! He is still as sweet as ever, but as my husband says, he has strong preferences and is loud enough vocalizing them that he usually gets his way. So sorry that this post is taking almost as long to write as it took me to read the book! 😉
Okay, now if we are all ready to move on…
So, I’m at a beautiful resort, sitting next to a pool early on Sunday morning. It had been an especially draining week (emotionally) and I was finally feeling completely relaxed. (or at least as close as I have in a long time) Part of the reason for that was that I had finally made some pretty serious decisions about my future and felt good with the direction I was ready to go. While I did have that somewhat calm feeling, the fear of the unknown was still tugging at my thoughts trying to confuse me and mess with my Chi. (couldn’t think of a better word there)
I don’t mean to be so vague, but it mostly has to do with spiritual growth and personal issues that are better suited to journals than blog entries. I don’t want to be explaining myself to everyone, especially any family members that may stumble upon my blog someday. I’m sure you all know what I mean…
Anyway, I was reading where Elizabeth was living in an Ashram in India and was getting frustrated with her spiritual growth and just frustrated in general with feelings from the past that keep resurfacing as she is trying to move forward. (I actually can really relate to this!) A friend that she has met there is leaving the Ashram and shows her a high tower to watch the sunset and gives her a poem that he has written to help her. Here is the poem:
INSTRUCTIONS FOR FREEDOM
- Life’s metaphors are God’s instructions.
- You have just climbed up and above the roof. There is nothing between you and the Infinite. Now, let go.
- The day is ending. It’s time for something that was beautiful to turn into something else that is beautiful. Now, let go.
- Your wish for resolution was a prayer. Your being here is God’s response. Let go, and watch the stars come out-on the outside and on the inside.
- With all of your heart, ask for grace, and let go.
- With all of your heart, forgive him, FORGIVE YOURSELF, and let him go.
- Let your intention be freedom from useless suffering. Then, let go.
- Watch the heat of the day pass into the cool night. Let go.
- When the karma of a relationship is done, only love remains. It’s safe. Let go.
- When the past has passed from you at last, let go. Then climb down and begin the rest of your life. With great joy.
I was seriously crying as I was reading this poem and the rest of the chapter, and was relieved that no one else was around to see me. This passage was exactly what I needed to hear that day. I think there was a reason that I hadn’t read it earlier because two weeks before it wouldn’t have had such a profound effect on me.
The other night I posted this song, and looking back maybe I should have posted this one by Imogen, but I think the message I kept getting over and over in the book was not to rush things. Not to rush the healing process. Not to rush the search of knowledge or inspiration and to take the time to do things the right way. Also to appreciate the quiet times without distractions. This is especially hard for me. I feel like I have to constantly DO or I’ll miss something and the irony is that I’m probably missing out by not just letting myself BE.
There are probably about 10 more passages that I would love to talk about in this book, but I don’t want to spoil it for anyone who wants to read it. I also think this is the kind of book that not everyone will get the same message from. For me, it held a lot of religious and spiritual meanings and also validated some of my own observations about life. I loved how she talked about getting spiritual inspiration from anything you can, not just the usual suspects. (church, etc.) This has held true to me as long as I can remember.
Towards the end of the book, as Elizabeth was living in Bali, all I could think about was my life when I was living in Hawaii. I was single, no real responsibilities or obligations and life seemed to move very slowly. I took the time to really listen to people and their stories and it helped me discover who I really was. I was away from my family, all of those outside influences and had to figure myself out. I also learned how to distinguish between real friends and the ones who just wanted something from me. Not a fun lesson to learn, but important nonetheless.
Some reviews of this book were quite harsh saying that the author is very self-centered and somewhat wishy washy in her ideas. To me, that’s just human nature. As we grow and change, so do our ideas, values and understanding. And she is on a self discovery mission, so it’s bound to be about her. There were a few chapters in the end that I could have done without, but overall I got so much out of this book. It’s just like anything else in life; you take from it what you need and use it to be a better person who is hopefully able to connect with others on yet another level.
I don’t know why I really wanted to say so much about this book, I guess the timing was perfect for me to read it and maybe one of you will get something out of my ramblings. If anything, you got to hear two great songs!
For those who have read this, I’d love to hear your thoughts! And those who haven’t read it, I highly recommend it. Obviously. Also, be warned. The entire first part of the book she talks about all of the incredible food in Italy and it may make you run out to your favorite Italian restaurant. Or that may just be me…